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Movies and Christian Bale

Last night I went to check out the new movie with Christian Bale called “Le Mans ’66”. I’m not a big fan of car racing nor of Matt Damon I have to admit, but I usually go to Christian Bale films if I can as I think he is an extremely talented actor. The trailers didn’t show his best acting and I was kind of hesitant about going because I didn’t want to go and see him doing something awful (plus the above reasons). However he didn’t disappoint. There was one scene in particular which I thought was really outstanding when he was on the tarmac of the place where they were developing the race car which was an airfield runway. He started to explain to his son about the state of mind he was in when he was racing that allowed him to calculate and judge all the necessary actions to achieve the best lap time and he was describing it as opening up or widening out his awareness so he could see all the seemingly insignificant markers. He delivered this scene with his characteristic focus which made it instantly believable.

Afterwards I was sitting watching the credits roll. Everyone else had left and only the guy cleaning the cinema was left in the room. He probably wanted me to move but didn’t say anything, we merely put up with each other. But at the end of the film I saw that it said that over 15,000 jobs had been supported by the making of the film and I guess you could say that his job was one of them. On the way back home on the bus I couldn’t help thinking that it is kind of crazy in a way that what is essentially just some lights dancing on a screen could have such an impact. I’m not trying to diminish the film industry but really when you think about it that is all it is. That is the final product which keeps the whole machine ticking over. You never actually see any of what is conveyed by the film directly. I’ve never seen Matt Damon in person nor Caitriona Balfe and yet they are instantly recognisable to me. As key members of the cast the film and the process of movie making would appear to revolve around them. All those other people who are involved play their parts too including the other actors but also everyone behind the scenes and the producers who actually bring the project to fruition.

One of the scenes where I got a bit emotional was when Christian Bale’s character slows down to allow his other teammates to catch up with him so they can cross the finish line together. This means he unwittingly forfeits his victory due to some treachery but it is a key moment for me in which the individualism which is so pervasive in film which also is reflected in the society at large is overcome for the sake of the collective (or so it seems). Again how this is conveyed is through something which is altogether illusory but it still stirs something in an individual’s psyche and perhaps others were feeling it too who were watching the movie. I hope so because some of the people in the theatre didn’t appear to be very interested in concern for other people. We all are wrapped up in our own little bubbles. Even a group experience like the movies doesn’t seem very sociable anymore. And a lot of the trailers were for things that featured on streaming services like Netflix and I also saw an advert for Virtual Reality headsets for gaming which really is the apex (so far) of full immersion in a bubble.

The experience of seeing a movie though as I said is really an illusory one. If you could put your head right up to the screen to focus on a small section of it (which you can’t do of course because you would obscure the screen with your own shadow) all you would really see is a flickering range of colours and light and you might see it as interesting but not really anymore than that. It wouldn’t be able to convey any meaning. But when you pull back your view you see the whole picture and the context of that one little flickering part is revealed and there is a sense of meaning. Those same flicking lights are there at that point on the screen but with all the other points around it filled with their own flickering lights it now seems to make sense. However it is just our minds that are making sense of it all because of their close approximation to what we perceive with our eyes in the world around us. It is still no more real and even has a double layer of illusion because the people on that screen are actors. We know that the same person has played many roles before but we are for that moment in the illusion that they are the character they are portraying. It’s another trick which our minds play on us but without this dual illusion we wouldn’t have the huge film industry with all the jobs it creates and all the lives it supports. It’s no wonder that people have some difficulties sometimes distinguishing where reality and fiction begin and end.

I’ve already gone on quite a lot now about the illusion that movies consist of but in this case I have another level to come to terms with in my mind. That is, unlike Matt Damon who I’ve never seen in person, I have seen Christian Bale in person. Not only that but he was also someone I considered to be a really good friend, my best friend in fact. I’m not sure if he thought about me the same way though. We were both at primary school together. We are exactly the same age, well he’s a bit older than me by a few months. Funnily enough I don’t remember the details of our friendship all that much. I posted a picture of us and some other friends in my bio which is also below:

You can see I was standing next to him and bear in mind at this time I still had a quite distinct American accent having recently moved from the States to the UK. I was also good friends with the other kids in the picture. Owen who you see to the right was a neighbour and I hung out with him a lot but you can also see that he’s standing apart from the small group clustered around Christian. It has to be said that even then he had quite a lot of charisma and there was something about him which was quite intense. Although I felt he was my best friend he could also be quite dismissive and I got quite jealous when he would hang out with Marcus and James who were on the opposite side of him from me. At that time I felt like I was a bit of an odd one out and there was something about Christian that I think made us kindred spirits in this regard so I felt quite attached to him. So I was pretty devastated when he suddenly left the school and I never saw him again. This had quite a big impact on me and was probably a pivotal moment in my life as it has been a repeated pattern where I’ve not had any really good lifelong friends with whom I have actually been in regular contact with. I certainly have good friends but they live far away. In a funny way Christian’s life has been a lot like mine in that he moved around a lot and went from the UK to the USA (so the opposite of what I did). However I do wonder how much of the real Christian Bale I actually knew because he was even then an enigma. The only thing I really remember that well about him personally, that is true to him as opposed to being an act, was that he disliked the name Christian and would have preferred to have been called Morgan.

Thinking back to that scene again where he explains to his on-screen son about the state of mind he is in when he is racing, if we could perhaps widen our views, so that instead of looking at the screen but beyond that, to the theatre and the outer world, much like the allegory of the cave in Plato, then we could perhaps see a bigger picture which has its own distinct layer of meaning. And also by extension not just the bigger picture in terms of space but also of time, that is by observing the whole as it changes over time, we also might see that again there is a meaning beyond what we might see if we are just fixated on a particularly narrow band around the short-term.

These experiences I think are what has led me to act and think the way I do and that is also perhaps what people find so disconcerting about me. When I meet people I just see them as people, no more and no less. It doesn’t matter whether they are rich or famous or have been deemed important because of their position or rank in a company or organisation. They are just people. And because I think like that people who are impressed by such things, which is really most people, don’t get it or like it very much if I don’t display their same attitude. And this is not anything against them, mostly that is human nature, but my motivations come from a different place and that is just me. And that is also why it happens that I tend to spend about half my time sleeping on a camp bed so my daughter can have more comfort and why I’m happy chatting with a homeless person for 20 minutes and why I feel so angry sometimes about injustices in our society.

I also saw that at the end of the film when the credits rolled almost to the very end that there were special thanks to people in Christian Bale’s family, including names whom I’m assuming are his wife and children. So I hope that he has found his happiness and that his role as a husband and parent are giving him genuine and authentic meaning.

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By DrewMcN

Drew McNaughton is a poet and musician with a passion for nature and languages.

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